See the hatred behind the eyes

I'm back! but probably not

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 11:27:50 GMT

[1] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[2] I have read a lot of books.
[] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[3] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[4] I have been to Canada.

[] I have been to Europe.
[5] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[6] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[7] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[8] I have played ping pong.
[9] I swam in the ocean.
[10] I have been on a whale watch.
[11] I have seen fireworks.

[12] I have seen a shooting star.
[13] I have seen a meteor shower.
[14] I have almost drowned.
[15] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[16] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[17] I have had stitches.
[18] I have been on the honor roll.
[] I have had frostbite.
[] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[19] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[] I currently have a job.
[20] I have been ice skating.
[21] I have been rollerblading.
[22] I have fallen flat on my face.

[23] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[24] I have been in a fist fight.
[25] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[26] I have passed out from being drunk.
[27] I have watched the power rangers.

[] I do attend Church regularly.
[28] I have played truth or dare.
[29] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[30] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[] I've lost weight since one year ago.

[31] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[32] I've been in a verbal argument.
[] I've cried in school.

[33] I've played basketball on a team.
[34] I've played baseball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[35] I've played soccer on a team.
[] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played volleyball on a team.
[] I've played tennis on a team.
[36] I've been on a swim team.
[] I've been on a track team or cross country.
[37] I've been on a golf team.

[38] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[] I've bungee jumped.
[39] I've climbed a rock wall.
[40] I've lost more than $20.
[41] I've called myself an idiot.
[42] I've called someone else an idiot.
[] I've cried myself to sleep.
[43] I've had (or have) pets.

[] I've owned a Spice Girls cd.
[] I've owned a Britney Spears cd.
[] I've owned an *N Sync cd.
[44] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd.

[45] I've mooned someone.
[46] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[47] I've been in the newspaper.
[] I've been on TV.

[] I've been to Hawaii.
[48] I've eaten sushi.
[49] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[50] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.

[] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[51] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[] I've watched "The O.C."
[52] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[53]I've been called a geek.
[54] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[55] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.

[] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[56] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[57] I've written poetry.
[] I've been arrested.

[58] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[59] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[60] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[61] I've had/have siblings.
[62] I've been to a rock concert.

[63]I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[64] I've been in a play.
[] I've been picked last in gym class.
[] I've been picked first in gym class.
[65] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

[66] I've cried in front of my friends.
[67] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[68] I've played Halo 2.
[69] I've freaked out over a sports game
[] I've been to Alaska.

[] I've been to China.
[] I've been to Spain.
[] I've been to France.
[70] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[71] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face. (Verbal!)
[72] I've had serious conversations on an IM.

[73] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[74] I've been forgiven.
[] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[75] I've cried at a chick flick.

[76] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[77] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[] I've been to a rap concert.

[] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[78] I've driven on the highway
[79] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day.
[80] I've been in a car accident

[81]I've done drugs.
[82] I've been homesick.
[83] I've thrown up
[84] Ive puked all over someone.
[85]I've been horseback riding.

[86] I've spoken my mind in public.
[87] I've proved someone wrong
[88] I've been proved wrong by someone.
[] I've broken a leg.

[] I've broken an arm.
[89] I've fallen off a swing.
[90] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[91] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[] I've lost my backpack.
[92] I've come close to dying.
[] I've seen someone die.
[93] I've known someone who has died.
[94] I've want/wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[] I've done modeling.
[95] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[96] I've taken something/someone for granted
[97] I've realized how good my life is.
[] I've counted my blessings.

[98] I've made fun of a classmate.
[99] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[100] I've asked someone on a date and been turned down.

[101] I've slapped someone in the face
[102] I've been skateboarding.
[103] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[104] I've lied to someone to their face.
[105] I've told a little white lie.

[106] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[107] I've fainted
[] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[108] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[109] I've been pushed into a pool

Stolen from Laura

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 22:32:18 GMT

You know its a bad concert when the best band plays first. So Against Me sucked, big time. Everyone else seemed to think they were the shit, but they sucked monster cock. The Soviettes, however, kicked fucking ass. They were definately worth going and I really want them to come through more. The Epoxies were really fucking good too. Anyway, the purpose of this post is to bash Against Me and dietize The Soviettes. Cause seriously, The Soviettes are gods.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 01:28:43 GMT

Goddamn its fucking cold. Really fucking cold. Yeah, so in my last post I said I was going to post a revised list of qualities I want in a girl the next day...but I didn't. I will eventually though. Anyway I should go back to studying for the two tests I have tomorrow. Then after my tests, I get to go see The Soviettes and Against Me! in concert. Hooray! First concert I will be able to go to all semester. I'll be back later, I just can't say when...

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 01:38:15 GMT

alright, today is RANDOM ACTS OF SILLYNESS DAY!

Indeed it can.

and now, pictures of me with a mohawk!

Who wants to touch Paul Bellini?

An email from a FEMA worker to ex-FEMA director Brown

ex-FEMA director Brown's response.

Rolling On The Floor Laughing That You Crapped In The Hallway

And with that I wrap up my random acts of sillyness. Stay tuned tomorrow when I post a revised list of qualities I desire in a girl. It should be fairly interesting.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 07:30:59 GMT

Well I am back for more ranting. I am really starting to get pissed off with people's cell phones ringing in class. Seriously people, can you not turn off your cute little hip-hop ringtone for ONE FUCKING CLASS?!?! Jesus butt-fucking Christ! Surely you can get by without your ringtone for a couple hours, especially when you can't answer the goddamn phone anyways. UH! Your stupidity is driving me fucking insane.

I'm thinking about holding a Bible burning and advertise it on campus. What do you think of that idea?

But on a less angerful note...hmmm, something. There seems to have been something that I was going to say, but I can't for the life of me think of what it was. Oh well, I'll post it soon I hope.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 04:17:17 GMT

Well I looked at her face and then I know she changed
Yeah my heart turned black and then the sky turned gray
Yeah my heart turned black and then the sky turned gray
Its how I sat in my room for 27 days
No she never called, well I had something to say
No she never called, well I had something to say
Now well I dont know much, I dont know how,
Why would she put me through such torture?
I would have given my life for her
She was the one that knocked me over
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner
Well I heard she's great and her new boyfriend's lame
Well she can go to hell I'll never be the same
Well she can go to hell I'll never be the same
These open wounds will heal in time they say
Yeah my heart turned black and then the sky turned gray
Yeah my heart turned black and then the sky turned gray
Now well I dont know much, I dont know how,
Why would she put me through such torture?
I would have given my life for her
she was the one that knocked me over
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner
Now well I dont know much, I dont know how,
Why would she put me through such torture?
I would have given my life for her
she was the one that knocked me over
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner

You know what I hate? People who are MOTHERFUCKING HYPOCRITICAL! Like when someone talks about how they hate it when a person says they will keep in touch but they dont. And then that same person who says they hate that goes and does it to someone else. I have someone in mind when I say that and she knows who she is, but I doubt that she will read this, since she deleted the last post I left her. Look, I have done a lot of stupid shit in my life. I continue to do stupid shit. I will always do stupid shit. But I forget about it and move on. I just wish that you could do the same. I really just want my best friend back. You might think me pathetic, but if you truly think it pathetic to want to patch a 6 year friendship in which we have stuck together through thick and thin, then fuck you. If you really feel that little about our friendship, then I dont fucking need you. No one will know the deep hatred I felt today. This is a cry for help.

In better news, I had a fucking blast at AWA XI this past weekend. It was my first experience cosplaying and I convinced David to join me. I was 8th Division Captain Kyouraku Shunsui, while David was 5th Division Captain Aizen Sousuke. We tore AWA a new one, and met a lot of really cool people while doing so. I hope to have pictures up soon. Should anyone that I recently met be reading this, hello to you, leave a message, and keep in touch. I love you guys!

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 22:14:39 GMT

It has once again been more than a month since my last post, so I am probably just writing this to myself. This is my worst semester ever. The classes aren't easy, and there is a shitload of work for me to do. I probably won't be posting much here for a while. I just want this semester to be over! However, AWA is this weekend and I am greatly looking forward to it. There is nothing better than a full weekend of an anime convention to lift the spirits. And this time I am cosplaying, which is fucking exciting! I will post pictures of me in costume next week. Well, I should really get back to studying for my test tomorrow. You people that still read this, let me know what you are up to, I haven't heard from ya'll in a long fuckin time.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 22:23:55 GMT

Well its been a while since my last update cause theres a lot of shit happening. But now I'm back and mad as hell, again. What am I mad at this time? I really fucking hate it when someone is waiting to get on an elevator, and when it finally gets to them, they jump right on without acknowledging that there might actually be someone on that elevator who wants to get off. Why don't people have any fucking common sense? If you are on the first floor and the elevator is coming down, chances are pretty good that there is someone on that elevator and that they want to get off. Don't run onto the elevator like you're the only goddamn person around. Fuck!

But that aside, how is everyone? I'm not doing too badly, just chillin. I am unfortuately leaving for school this Saturday. I would really like to hang out with everyone before I leave. So, give me a call or leave me a message here and we'll do something before I go. Well, until next time...

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 00:50:55 GMT

does anyone want to go to Steak and Shake with me right now?

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 05:52:50 GMT

Finally, pics of my subs.

That's right, they're Kickers. I wouldnt let anything else touch my car.

haha, I'm listening to japanese psychobilly. Its great stuff.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 05:51:04 GMT

Alright, I lied. I decided not to go to Miami. Instead I'm here sleeping and generally goofing off. Pics of my car soon to come...

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 04:46:11 GMT

I finished hooking up my subs today and they sound fuckin great. They pound like hell. I will put pictures up later. I am leaving to go to Miami tomorrow afternoon, so pics will have to wait till next week. Well, till next week then!

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 05:13:07 GMT

Ah, today was a good day for anime. I bought Elfen Lied dvd 2, and Midori no Hibi dvd 3. I didnt think that Midori no Hibi 3 was supposed to come out for another two weeks, but whatever, I got it.

I'm a loser, I know, but dont care.

I am hooking up my subwoofers tomorrow. So if anyone wants to go holla at bitches one evening, hit me up.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 04:52:29 GMT

I erased the original post here because I realized that I was whining like a little bitch. So I put an end to that. I still have no ride for my tint excursion, so if you can take me, I would be quite grateful. And it would help if I knew like now, preferably. I am so tired of work, I am ready to get back to ATL. I have done absolutely nothing this weekend except sleep and...

play Jade Empire, which is quite probably one of the top three games for XBOX. If you have an XBOX, buy this game!

I'm a knife, kinfin around. Cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut.

And just for the record, I am a total and complete ass that should never have been allowed to speak. But most of you probably know that already.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 05:57:11 GMT

Alright, quick simple post. Who wants to drive me around while I get tint put on my car? All you would have to do is pick me up at the shop, drive me to work (at about 12:30pm). Then pick me back up at work at about 4:00 and take me back to the shop. Really not a whole lot of effort required. Perhaps I should be asking who owes me favors? I would be willing to pay for your trouble and services. oh, it would be on Friday July 15th. So if you're interested, or feel guilt knowing that you owe me a favor, let me know. Later holmes.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 04:12:14 GMT

Wow, I realized that there was a lot I meant to post yesterday and forgot. Yeah, so I'm thinking about getting my ears and nose pierced. So if anyone wants to go with me to get them pierced, and then house me after my parents kick me out of the house, sign up here.

I have decided my purpose in life. I am going to become a ninja. Everyone keeps saying that I sneak up on them and they never hear me coming, so I figure I should put this gift to use. I will be swift and silent. a deadly assasin. oh man, Jade Empire is a hella awesome, addicting game.

dammit, there was something else that i just forgot. oh, MC Chris is coming in about two weeks, I'm excited.

"I touched her hand, her hand touched her boob. By the transitive property, I got some boob! Algebra's awesome!"
I love that quote.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 05:56:22 GMT

I finally finished putting on my LED underbody and trunk neons. My car is going to look friggin sweet. Hopefully this weekend I'll get my tint put on, then it'll be even better. I'll put pics up soon. Then all I'll need are my subs which will be here soon I hope...

I picked up Jade Empire today for 30 bucks. It is a great game. Hard, but awesome.

I finished Chrno Crusade last night, and cried like a baby. It is such an amazing anime and its so sad, yet inevitable. Its simply beautiful.

And Mind of Mencia premieres Wed. night. I'm so excited. He is one funny fuck.

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 03:47:03 GMT

I finally got my new digital camera today! I'm so excited! Its a Canon Powershot A520. Its fucking sweet. I put some pics up under tha cut. more will be put up later, now that i finally have a functional camera with which to document my life.

mmm, acid trip. its fun to play with the shooting modes

haha, my anime and manga. I'm such a loser

Kuchiki-san is looking more beautiful each and every day. I just hooked up two neons in my trunk to light up my subs when I get them installed (which will be soon I hope). I am also finally putting on my LED underbody if it will ever stop raining long enough for me to do it.

I just started watching Chrno Crusade and oh my goodness it is very good.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 04:49:03 GMT

Alright people, I am finally doing it. I am getting subwoofers for my kizar. So here's what I need from you. I know nothing of rap music. Therefore I need suggestions from you of songs with nice bass that I can play when I get them installed. Then I will pick up anyone who wants to, and we'll drive around town and holla at some bitches. Sound good to you? I think so. You know what? If I were gay, I would totally have sex with Michael Ian Black. His new show Stella is fucking hilarious. If you are given the opportunity, its on Comedy Central, Wed. @ 10:30. WATCH IT!

I got to hang out with my best friend Caley on Monday. That was soo much fun. I miss her so much. I am going to go over to her house some time and chill. I seriously love her to death.

I also need someone to go see War of the Worlds and Fantastic Four with. Let me know if you interested.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 23:41:05 GMT

I think my mom hates me. We just came back from seeing Batman Begins (go see it goddammit). In the car I made some smartass remark (as usual) and she blew up at me. She told me how she hates that I come into her house (I'm pretty sure my dad paid the bill) and discredit her religion and president. She says I blame everything on those two things (I do, but can you blame me?). Then I got out of the car, and she drove off to go eat. So I think she hates me now. I must have some knack for pissing people off. I, of course, dont really mean anything that I say. You people know that. I'm a cynical, sarcastic bastard (hence my parenthetical commentation). I think people just take things that I say WAY too seriously. I know I should cut back on my smartassedness, and I am trying.

P.S. Robert Novak is a douchebag, as are all republicans and religion is stupid.

P.P.S. I apologize, I shouldnt have said that.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 01:15:08 GMT

Goddamn, its day three of me and my cold. I have been coughing up mucus the size of golf balls all day. I fucking hate this. I hope I'm better in time to go to Kelly's on Sunday. but right now, I'm going to lie in bed and watch a movie. I guess Metrocon is about out of the question.

Laura! When are we going to Busch Gardens? I NEED to ride Shiekra!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 04:19:55 GMT

Wow, I cant believe that I have actually been putting something up everyday here. Well, I have decided to do something I have never done before. I am officially holding a contest. The purpose of this contest is to create the best graphic for my car. You can choose to design a graphic for the sides, hood, or roof of my car. If your design is chosen to be put on my car, I will also add a graphic with your name on my car, to acknowledge your artwork. Under the cut are pictures of my car that you can use as templates for your design (yes I realize that my car was very dirty at the time of the photo). When you have completed a design, you can send it to me at punker0017@gmail.com

I ask that everyone who visits my page on a regular basis(all four of you), please spread the word to any interested friends or post a link in your lj. Thank you and good luck.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 04:11:25 GMT

I cant believe that I'm actually feeling content, almost happy. I gave my car a good scrubing and waxing earlier this afternoon. Kuchiki-san is looking more beautiful than ever. Some window tint, an LED underbody kit and lambo doors, and she'll be ready to go back to school with me in the fall.

You know, I used to think that I could live like a hermit. No people, no problems. But this past week has enlightened me. Without my friends, I would have nothing. I love all my friends so much (both of them). I never want to lose them, never. Just the thought of losing them is painful (hence this past week's delirious posts).

huh, I've run out of anything coherent to say...

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 07:30:42 GMT

I would like to start off by saying that I am truly sorry to all of you who visit my lj for the pointless rants and goings on. This past week my mental state has been off. But now my issues have been resolved and my usual mental state has returned and will not return EVER (if I have anything to say about it goddammit). So I am back now and MAD AS HELL!

Alright, so I was bored at work last week, so I picked up a Christian magazine just to see what kind of nonsense they were preaching. So I start reading this article that states that the media is the devil. NOT like the devil, NOT similar to the devil. No, it IS the devil! WTF? They tried to back up this claim by stating that watching tv lowers your IQ. Well no shit, thats common sense, but that doesnt prove its the fucking devil. GODDAMMIT I HATE RELIGIOUS PEOPLE! So I stopped reading that bullshit and turned the page to find an article on what colleges are doing wrong. You know what they are supposedly doing wrong? Being liberal. According to them, over 80% of college professors are liberals. Well no one can help the fact that intellectuals are liberal. Maybe if your ideals werent so goddamn stupid, more intellectuals would side with you. UH! FUCK THESE PEOPLE.

So, I have an idea. I think we should throw all these fucking religious people into a giant spaceship and launch them into space. Then we can send them cheesy movies, the worst we can find. LA LA LA. Theyll have to sit and watch them all...(snaps out of it). WOOOOO. Sorry bout that, got a little into it. But thats my idea anyway, I think it would be great.

Ahhh, its good to be back. I slept for three hours on my floor today, while watching really bad shark movies on Sci-Fi. It was extraordinarily comforting and therapeudic (sp?). So no more bullshit from me. Though I have a few more poems and thoughts that I think are pretty good and would like to share (though they no longer have any meaning to me). I will decide later whether or not to post them.

Well, tomorrow (Sun) I plan on doing the work on my car that I was going to do today (Sat). If anyone is nearby, drop by and we'll hang out. I simply cannot get enough of this Gorillaz cd.

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 05:18:03 GMT

"Tell Sanchito that if he knows what is good for him, he best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down Sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that I've got something for his punk ass"

Indeed, my thoughts exactly.

My heart has been beaten by the one I care about most
Torn between thoughts of hate and love
Fear of each emotion's consequences
Disappointed in others
Hate, furious and unrelenting
Love, deep and unrequited
Thoughts storm the beaches of my brain
Destroying the hope and replacing with reality
The end is not yet arrived
The beginning foreshadows bleakness
Seems God is against me
Well fuck him anyway

You know, I never much cared for poetry, but I enjoyed that. I think I'll spend all day tomorrow working on my car. Try to clear my mind of all the bullshit